The Maturation of Whisky and its Perils

Some years and months ago, spirit was distilled and reckoned good enough to be put into an oak cask with heavy char. It would sit and breathe in the goings-on around it and would record the disturbances and actions taking place in its vicinity; imbuing those perturbations into the liquid held inside.

Some disturbances reach further with their ripples than others. An oversized truck barreling down a road adjacent to the rick-house would send its vibrations into the spirit coaxing the precious liquid further into the oak. A particularly cold winter that out-does the heating capacity of the building will force the wood to contract and expel some of its saturation, slowing the hard-won progress until warmth returns to the cockles of the stout 200 liter barrel, allowing absorption like the embrace of a long not seen friend.

The maturation process also keeps secrets. A late night tryst between distiller and visitor. A juxtaposition of senses: for the distiller the visitor is all long blonde hair and blue eyes to see and rough much pocked hands running over intoxicating smoothness to touch. The barrel becomes party to them as much needed support, the aroma of the visitor permanently etched into the rough surface as the slow inhalation of its surroundings continues. Muted are the complaints in reaction to a small travesty as an errant thrust dislodges the bung from its hole, irrevocably changing the course of the whisky’s history by prematurely exposing it to the open air. Its revenge, though not malicious in nature, is to lose a greater percentage of its volume, that is greater appeasement of the angels that continuously take their share. It will be noted on a spreadsheet in some years time by the distiller and the tax man. The visitor who languished so sensuously and briefly  on the barrel will have long since removed the dust and soot inherent to aging casks and the offense of it long forgotten. The distiller filed in the visitors memory under the heading, interesting-setting-but-mediocre-lover.

Some years even further from that time someone might comment that that particular batch of whisky had some hint of longing, sweet misery, and playful boyishness. Perhaps, a combination of extra oxidization and a spike in evaporation, but really it is the maturation process’ secret laid bare for all to see.

Once finally emptied, the cask would still remember its liquid mate. Bathed in it for many years it would be hard to forget. Some time later after sitting and slowly expelling the memories it would be sent somewhere else. A new mate, but with different purpose. New disturbances and once again the bonding and percolation of history into the new spirit. A more focused distiller to be sure, but missed are the late night visits and feelings of uniqueness that it had once enjoyed. Before, one of a hundred, now; one of thousands and thousands. No more touches, slaps, or caresses. A more modern facility and so too are absent the vibrations from nearby trundling trucks, or cold winters to weather, or impromptu use as a lover’s surface.

Instead, many years of the same. Temperature controlled and visits few and far in-between. Solitude and pensiveness as spirit and oak mingle, still too the old spirit echoing forward in the future. Much longer this time until the barrel spear comes. The whisky this time does not raise any eyebrows from distiller or tax man. Gone are the notes of longing and playfulness; replaced instead, by notes of measured fortitude, patience, and as one drinker would note a by-the-numbers-whisky that pleases and reassures.

Once again shipped to parts unknown. This time a small cooperage. A fire built for a viking funeral. The farm hands, the pall bearers, are not gentle and with rough hands and rough tools they bring the barrel, bereft of its heads, to the fire’s edge. They scour the inside with sanders and plannars and the cask marvels as it feels the layers of char stripped away to reveal heretofore oak not touched by the light of day or the wetness of whisky. Then unto the pyre tossed to sit for some long seconds. Heavy char. But where there should be excruciating pain there is instead a renewed sense of usefulness. Removed from the flame and heads restored, a gleaming question forms in the barrel’s mind: “What next could I be?”

An offering to the nameless gods.

I made my first offering to the gods when I was just 15. I gunned a man down in an alleyway. I saw him first, luckily, and as he raised his shotgun to blow a hole in my chest I managed to raise the machine pistol in my hand and pull the trigger. The first bullet took him in the groin as I raised my hand. The recoil brought the bullets upwards and a line of gore sprouted from his stomach, then his chest, and my brain reminded me to let go of the trigger when I saw his throat explode blackish-red in the neon light of the damned city.

It was chaos then and I knew I did not have time to stop, but I did. I knelt down and touched his foot and I offered him to the gods. It was a silly thought at the time, that there were gods in the first place and that they might govern my life, but the thought popped into my head and I went with it.

I escaped the disintegrating city that night, leaving behind wails of horror and constant gunfire. I do not know how many more offerings I made that night. I only remember the first one and the first one still sticks with me to this day. I see the surprise in his eyes and I see the muzzle of the shotgun moving upwards. I see my own death coming in hot and fast with a precise dispassion and, of course, I see the way to avoid such a death.

As I ran that night; as I hid and hugged walls and avoided my neighbours who were also trying to escape that damned city I became aware of a certain type of governance. You see, we do not have control over the moments. There are moments each day that are beyond us and we are simply subject to the will of the gods who control that particular moment. I devoted myself to these gods, though I did not know their names, and begged them to preserve me for another moment. When the moments grew longer and hours ticked by I asked them to preserve me until dawn. As I turned back and saw the sun break over the damned city I was converted and baptized in the rays that struck me. I was an acolyte to the nameless gods who control the moments we do not. I am zealot of the gods who bring me to the morning safely. Each night, as I close up this little bar that resides in my corner of the Moon I raise a toast to them and that they bring me more moments and selfishly I ask to see another dawn.

It has been some years since I have made an offering like I did when I was 15, but I never rule out the possibility that the gods will ask for more. I listen each night, as I close up the bar, for the warning signs of another damned city and I resign myself to being held at the whim of the gods of the moment.

Objectifying Women

“What is anatomy?

Something of which we all have, but looks best on a woman.”

I have met this girl a few times now. We get coffee, or whisky when I’m drinking again. We sit and we talk and solve the world’s problems. A little salt in Liberia, a sprinkle of paprika in the Balkans, a dash of sugar in the Middle East, and set to simmer in the American Midwest.

Sometimes the banter is light and pleasant and other times things become more drawn out with the tendrils of our conversation reaching far deeper and more sensitive topics. Of course, it means nothing really, just a way for us to continue to see each other and talk about the things that interest us.

I worry though, and you’ll have to forgive me. I worry that I will not be taken seriously when I describe how much I appreciate and how wonderful this woman is simply because I find her attractive. Much ink has been spilled to point the finger at men who write about women and I worry that my point about this girl will be lost because I find her attractive.

She is smart. Not just in an intelligent way, but an emotional way as well. In one breath denouncing an easily solved atrocity and in another lamenting the circumstances that led to it and all the lives it impacted. Not single minded at all, but I worry that how I feel about her is invalidated because she also has magnificent breasts.

Therein lies the problem I am recounting to you now. I worry that there is not space for my adoration to be perceived both ways because of the inherent bias against a man and it is troubling. Is it wrong to admire her ability to quote Foucault in one sentence and comment on the delicacy of her pubic grooming style in the next? Does one invalidate the other?

I get it. I am a man and therefor the things I say are put through a singular prism created from a semen based epoxy. But, I must lament that fact because who then will write these things? Is there not some truth to the fact that this woman is both beautiful and intelligent? Can I not focus on both items separately and together as I please as long as I am not disparaging her?

Is it possible that there has been one too many men who have gone out of their way to describe a woman based on her looks alone that to even bring that matter into the mix is an insult? Perhaps, there has been one Pygmalion too many and we as men must avoid the physical nature of attraction and focus instead on the ephemeral side of attraction.

I believe it is a fallacy. That it is more important for me to wonder what she looks like in the throws of a good book as opposed to what she looks like in the throws of a good orgasm. I believe we are in a place now where one thought is outwardly praised more than the other and I believe that is where we have gone wrong as humans.

It is a personal fact: This woman is gorgeous. I could lie to you and say that I did not realize this until I spoke to her and felt her life-force knock against mine, but the truth is that I watched her walk into the bar and my cave-man brain started itemizing the things that I found particularly appealing about her. I won’t bore you with the details, but friend, let me tell you this lady has legs that would make a fertility goddess forget about hips.

Then we spoke and talked some more and the things I said were improved or eclipsed by the things she said. In the midst of this I felt my gut tightening. No one would believe me. To say, I have found a Unicorn out in the wild: “Ah, yes, fellas let me tell you she is stacked and it was delightful to hear her relate the parable of the previous reincarnation of Buddha to the homeless epidemic we are experiencing in the sad peripherals of our great cities.”

It’s a lot like using niggardly in a sentence. If you use it too early on most folks spend the rest of the sentence deciding where they come down on the racist implications of that word rather than listen to the rest of the sentence. Because I mentioned that she is ‘stacked’ the fact that she was able to use a philosophical story to fully describe a modern problem is lost on the audience.

There is a point to this. You see, I am blessed in having met a woman with such an equilibrium of beauty and intelligence. It makes it easy on me in describing her because I can tap into where the blood rushes. I can describe what makes her attractive to me and I can explain what it is like the swim in the estuaries of her personality.

I suppose it is not too much to worry about after all. She is what she is and if it turns out that I have exaggerated then others can rest easy that such a being of perfection does not exist, or if I am right on the money then I cannot be assailed for telling the truth about what I saw. I am practicing honesty and as it occurs to me there is nothing wrong with a little heroine worship. I just don’t want people to be distracted, you know? I feel that if one were to focus just on how beautiful she is then they would be missing a whole other world of what makes her so lovely. If one wanted to circumvent the typical protests and focus solely on her intelligence and personality they would being doing a disservice to how those things are presented to the world.

Inevitably, this wonder-woman will discover that I am far beneath her. I know it will come and am resigned to that fact. It will be a click in her mind as I say something that reveals my true nature: a drooling idiot, who was taught manners in the same way apes are taught sign language. It will be a good realization and she will leave and I will look to the door for more potential partners.

But, what of the next one?

I would like to deconstruct something…

Okay let’s break it down like a shotgun, folks. You see, there is something very sick and wrong with the way things are today. Not just in the general sense but on a very individual level. Not even just a societal thing, but; you,you,YOU, and; me, me, ME!

It is so easy to point the finger and say no, not me, not me, sir. You are mistaken,you see I read Foucault and I have several bound books on my shelf that I look at longingly. No there is no wool over my eyes. But, you’re wrong. The thing is you have been deceived to believe that that matters. It doesn’t, you’re not beautiful enough and I’m sorry but it’s a problem.

Everything has become so visual and that’s the problem. Before reality was just reality, plain and simple. You walked out side and you saw a drunk at your door, or you’d see one travesty after another and it would be real and you would become desensitized that way. Now nothing is real. Everything that is visually consumed is some sort of magic trick and the magicians are the beautiful people.

People used to be so in tune with each other that there was a communal unspoken language that could be interpreted as telepathy. Now? People have to be overt. There is no more body language, instead just bright colours that we wear obscenely to make ourselves different from the next person. “Oh gosh, Lucy, you wore blue today? Fuck me, Lucy, you stupid bitch today is a pastel yellow day.” Yeah, yeah… I know it all sounds insane, but you know. Deep down inside you know.

We are weeding out ugliness in our ranks. Even now there are legal proceedings to determine if someone is beautiful enough to be right or wrong. Before, the gods could preside over trial by combat, but now that the gods have all been murdered in their sleep there is no real justice. So, people have tried to make themselves beautiful by mutilating their bodies, or tapping into a sub-genre of not-so-ugly so that they too can be loved. But, the devil is in the details. They may pass for a while, but they might have kids and when others realized they have passed themselves off as beautiful they will kill those children. Trust me, it’s already happening.

I would feel bad for those beautiful people if they weren’t fucking things up for our species so much. They have performed the magic trick too well, they have gotten their way. Now, that is all there is to aspire to. You have to be beautiful or else. Maybe not this generation, maybe not the next, but soon, in the grand scheme of things they are going to start culling. They will be praised for it. How could they not? You’ve already seen it happen. The beautiful blonde girl goes to the hovel to help and on a mission of world betterment, but at the end they simply got some pictures and videos of them beside the ugly people. It is proof that their ultimate plans of genocide were benevolent.

Eventually, it will just be the beautiful ones. They will die in opulence with a mirror overhead, but that too will come to an end. They will be brilliant and beautiful and they will have destroyed anything unique about humanity and then once that is gone they will kill each other out of spite. The killing will be barbaric, that’s one thing about ugly folks like me, we are good killers. Beautiful people want everything to be clean, you know, a fell swoop. Well that’s not how it goes when you want to kill your fellow man. Plus, in the pursuit of beauty I am assuming they will have forgotten a lot of important things along the way.

Ha-ha! I can’t help but laugh. It a real fucking tickler, you know? The old adages are true and none truer than beauty being skin deep. You know how I know? Because I have ripped and torn into people. With my bare hands even and let me be the first to tell you what is inside is not pretty at all. Sure, there is a certain aesthetic to it. Indeed, indeed I will be the first to admit that there is something about blood and gore, but you tear a man open and things get messy quick.

Anyway, anyway, you don’t need my life story. You have most of it on camera anyway don’t you? Can you hear me out there? Can you heeeeaaaarrrrr me?

Burn me up…

…let me pretend I was beautiful in the dark.

These last breaths I breathe in defiance of what we have become.

* * * *

“God-fucking-damnit!” A man leans heavily on a desk equipped with a microphone that sits not far from his dry, much chewed, lips.

“What is it? Have you managed to talk to him? The cutters should be through the hull in a minute or two.”

The man’s shoulders hunch and his head drops lower, “No. He’s gone.”

“WHAT?!”

A pause

“The cutters are through… Oh, Christ.” The woman watching the progress of the rescue team covers her mouth. Her eyes are wide with fear and disbelief.

“He killed them.”

“I thought you were communicating with him? We saw the life-signs they were good. He had enough air to last another 10-15 minutes at least. We were going to save him!”

The man shakes his head and looks over at the woman in the command station with him. She is tall and blonde, her lips are perfect and full and despite the ordeal they had been through the last hour trying to rescue the floating ship, she looked delightful.

He stops a moment to consider her and what the lone survivor said.

“I don’t know how to tell you this, Lucy, but that bastard talked himself to death.”

Where does OnlyFans go from here?

To the Knife Princess,

Not knowing you is pleasurable in some sense of the word. You see, it is because knowing you in earnest would fill my heart beyond its capacity. It would fill and fill and begin to overflow, ultimately consuming me in the process. So, it could be said that I am better off not truly knowing you so that I may remain me and avoid the changes that I have grown to fear in myself.  

This banal and ludicrous theory of keeping true knowledge of you at a distance, does not mean that you have not invaded my thoughts. To the contrary, there are swirls and currents of you that penetrate my waking hours and force my mind to wander and float in these imaginary estuaries of you. I am surprised and thankful my mind applies well maintained brakes and screeches to a halt in front of the effigy of you that has been built up in my mind. I am even more surprised when it comes to life and begins to perambulate and make its way into other segments of my psyche.

I am glad of the tenuous nature of you. It allows a certain liberty when it comes to the perversions of my mind when we enter the boudoir of my memory palace. Once there, you look back at me; naked, beautiful, and smiling with the invitation for me to do my worst and in the process fulfill your own desires.

You are not mine. Let’s be clear and account for some realities of our situation. I know I am not unique as an individual who admires you. There are many, I am no fool, I see the numbers and the views you receive and this is okay too. I mean, there is a subdued ecstasy that twirls around inside me as your projected glow reflects off my own pale, sun deprived features. I am resigned, but also comfortable with the fact that your virtual presence is ephemeral and not necessarily directed at me. Perhaps, it is a pathetic admission to say so, but I am okay with it. I’m okay, I swear.

On the subject of reaffirmation, these distances and barriers and payment plans that we have put between each other may indeed be for the best. You see I worry about your proximity and the physiological effects that may result if we were in the same room. I have experienced sensory overload in the form of a pistol being pressed to my temple and, darling, that pistol has nothing on you.

You are opulent in the way we understand divinity. You are gorgeous like electricity illuminating a forgotten place filled with innumerable riches. I sometimes wonder if a goddess allowed her reflection to be born of earth and then I remember that you are your own goddess and I have been genuflecting for sometime now. I tell you this as a somewhat honest man, that should you find yourself in my little corner of the moon, I promise you will drink for free.

Your Admirer,

The Barkeep

Art By: AYKUT AYDOĞDU

There is no fucking behind the bar.

Sex is everywhere. You can find it in the cracks and seams in every aspect of our lives from when we are young and still wondering what exactly it is to when we are old and we consider that we should have stuck more fingers into said cracks and seams.

Sex is so prevalent that they have a hard time giving it away these days. Sex has to be dressed up or modified until it isn’t sex at all, but a part time job at a hardware store, or a strongly worded letter. There is so much sex in the world that it has become the thing by which we describe how mundane something is. How often have you heard the term, “it’s better than sex,” huh?

There is no fucking behind the bar because it is a refuge. I can pour drinks and I can cast my gaze over the small empire I have carved for myself out of the crater in which this city resides.

There is no fucking behind the bar because there are forces at work which I may have had a hand in creating, or may not exist at all, aside from in my imagination.

Once, drunkenly, I masturbated behind the bar when everyone had left. I drank that night harder than most nights. I drank with the customers and watched a young couple in the corner touch and talk and for some reason I could taste and feel them together and once they had gone I rubbed myself until I splashed my jizz all over the already dirty mats that lay at my feet behind the bar. I remember coming to my senses then. A clear sobriety that echoed through my body and seemed to vibrate out into the very room.

I knew I had done something wrong. Perhaps, one of the gods who watches over this place saw me bend or break a rule that I had been resolute to follow. I’m not sure. All I know is, what followed was a terrible week. It was like I had been cursed. Looking back it must have all been a self-fulfilling prophecy, but at the time it felt like the only way to atone for my sin was to wash my mouth out with the shotgun I keep underneath the bar beside the dusty unused wine glasses.

I made it through, though. I made it through and learned my lesson, that the rules you set for yourself in the realm you created are the worst to break and bear the harshest consequences.

So, now, there is no fucking or sex of any kind behind the bar. Don’t get me wrong. I’m still a red-blooded barkeep and my perversions remain intact. I saw that couple again that had caused me to violate myself that night I broke my own rule and I slung them drink after drink. I flirted with them both and told them about the after-hours special where they could drink and touch and play and fuck all for free as long as they let me watch. I watched. I helped. However, we did it all on the other side of the bar. Where it is safe and the rules are different. We didn’t fuck behind the bar and because of that the week proceeded without darkness or fear.

What about the killers?

We need to think about the killers. We have made such wonderful progress in identifying and moving to help those who suffer from mental illnesses. Just think of the strides we have made in these past years spotting things like obsessive compulsive disorder, or dyslexia, or attention deficit disorder. Before, not long ago, those would have been lumped together into a sub-heading of bored or hyper active.

But, what about the killers? You know, the people who need to murder. Who need to see blood and guts and feel the tactile sense of life ending at their own hand. Is that not also a mental disorder? As it stands right now we lock those people up. We put them into cells and we throw away the key and punish them for the way their mind works. In some parts of the world those people are killed for being killers.

Perhaps, one is lucky to identify that they have this predisposition and illness and go into a field where it is a boon to them. Maybe, they join the military or they become a doctor, or perhaps a hang-man.

Should we not protect these people? I read once that of the soldiers that experience traumatic events 2% have no response. That is, they have killed someone in the line of duty and return home unaffected from their experience. Extrapolated, this would mean that potentially 2% of the population has the disposition of a serial killer.

Now we should fight fear and should seek not to label these people if we are to help them. Indeed, that is the failure we made before as we called women forced into bland marriages bored and we gave them drugs to combat something that was systemic and not a personality disorder.

So, I ask you all what about the killers? Do they not also deserve our compassion? Should we not seek to understand an illness rather than condemn it? As we move forward and catalogue so many other types of mental illnesses why are we so hesitant to do the same for those folks who are born with an absence of a moral compass.

We now try to educate individuals on mental illness. Do not judge someone with bi-polar disorder they have a difficult cross to bear. Be kind to the person suffering from depression. They are in a dark depth and require more empathy than others. But, spit on the killer.

I urge you to educate yourself on the killer. Perhaps, in understanding we can help them and bring them into our homes in the spirit of rehabilitation. We will become a greater society if we do. We need to stop looking at a series of calculated slayings as simply a crime, but rather, a cry for help.

Please donate to the Church of Xenophon the patron saint of murders. Your donation will go towards helping killers.

–A pamphlet left at my door.

Kill or be Killed.

“…and I just think we are different people now.”

The young man takes a deep breath and runs his hands through his long dark hair. You can tell he has done it a lot today because the strands are curled and greasy from repeated touch. A sure sign of frustration. He exhales steadily. This is his shot. Say the right words and everything can be okay again:

“I am difficult. I know it. I know it because I can feel myself being that way. It is like small bits of sandpaper that scrape across my cerebelum as I speak the words that I know are destined to displease you. Please trust me, I know when I am doing it, but I really just can’t help it. It is a testament to how I feel about you.”

Another breath and a look around the bar. It is quiet this time of day. Just commited drunks and the others.

“It is not a bad thing either. No, no. It’s just you make me a little crazy. You run through my mind constantly and as you do it I am conflicted by how much I am in awe of you and how much I feel that I am not worthy. I feel this way and when I see you outside of my mind only the awe exists, but when you are gone the insecurity remains.”

“Plus… Our history. Mistakes on both sides that only add to it. But! Scar tissue is good. A reminder of what drew blood, but did not kill. I know this: I would suffer for you; more scars and abbrasions. Even now as we seem to drift apart and the pain is most intense I would stay in this flame. “

They look at each other and then to their drinks. She is hunched forward and his shoulders have sagged. He takes a sip of his drink and it seems to revitalize him slightly.

“Remember our perfect day? In the shell of that ruined church we found along the river path? We sat and talked and we talked so long that we nearly got stuck out in the woods. That was right before we left, together.”

“I think about that day a lot. There was no rush and everything seemed important and unimportant at the same time. Like, the words no matter their subject, held their own seperate and intense meaning. We loved each other then, I think.”

The last words cause her to sit straighter and cast a sideways glance at him.

“We did. I remember the next day I said so while we were laying in bed in the morning. You were pretending to be asleep and I told you I was in love with you. That wasn’t a dream, right? It wasn’t a mistake. It was a purity in our lives that we have seldom sought for again and I am truly sorry we have not. I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry.”

More silence, but also heat. I can feel it as I refill their drinks. It cinges my knuckles that grip the bottle and I feel a sweat break out on my forehead. He’s not going to win. They weren’t the right words, but there is fire in that soul of his. Briefly and insanely I worry about it physically setting fire to the spirits just behind the bar, but I mentally shake that worry in time to hear her:

“I’m sorry, too. I have to go.”

There are losers every night in my little bar on the moon, but I felt for this one. He charged the battlements, but sometimes a lady’s cold steel resolution cuts through even the most valiant of heroism.

Drinks on me, fella.

From Across the Bar

I have seen many first moments. You work behind a bar night and day and you see a lot of them. In literature there is talk of a thunderbolt or a shared look and then it is all over. Star-crossed lovers, blam-o right then and there. But, in my humble experience it is a little different.

Firstly, someone sees the other one first. Like a game of visual tag and yet no one knows that they are playing. One of the individuals spies the other one and the game is on. I have heard tell of the ‘3-second rule,’ where you need to make up your mind in three seconds. I think that’s all moon-dust. What kind of crazy person knows what they want in three seconds?

It also defeats the importance of the next part: Courage. It takes guts to talk to someone face-to-face these days. Heck, what with the technology we have you never need to see a person ever if you really didn’t want to and some don’t. So, the old-fashioned stuff. Like, walking up to a boy you like the looks of and introducing yourself takes courage.

There is battle courage, sure. I have seen enough of that and individuals have spoken on that subject with far more eloquence than I ever could. No, this is a different type of courage. It is accepting failure, but hoping for the best possible outcome. It is steeling yourself against your enevitable demise, but allowing the winds of fancy to push you forward towards doom, destiny, or both. Courage is slugging back some cheap whisky and then making your fool-hardy move. I can say that it is rarely executed well, but sometimes there is charm in that too.

That’s the true romance of the moment and you can’t help but get close to it and listen in. Especially in my position.

“Hi.”

“Hi.”

“I, uh, was hoping I could buy you a drink, or uhmmm if I could introduce myself. I’m K. Hi”

“Oh. Well I already have a drink and you just introduced yourself.”

“Right… and, right.”

*Silence pervading the noisey atomosphere*

*The Moon spins a little more slowly*

“Well, I introduced myself… What’s your name?”

“I’m T.”

“Hi, T what brings you here? I’ve never been here before.”

“Well, the whisky is cheap and this place never seems to get shut down. Plus, my friends dragged me here.”

“Oh, well it is sort of the same for me my friends got me to come here too. That’s them over there.”

“Yeah I can tell by the gawks.”

“Are you sure you don’t want another drink? I, uh, don’t really know anything about whisky, but I will drink what you are drinking.”

“Fine. Just ask for the rail stuff. It’s not the real stuff, but I like that.”

“Okay. It’s better if it’s not real?”

“Oh damn. That’s not easy to answer and if I got it wrong and someone overheard they might kill me.”

“Ah you look like the dangerous type. T, the whisky spy.”

“You have no idea, K.”

The occupants of the bar all blur and become static as these two drink their whisky and indulge in each other’s company. They have time. It is a speakeasy after all and closing time is some hours off. They go slow, but there are moments of extreme honesty that catapult them further along with each other.

Who knows where they will go from here. They sat together and in those moments their world was confined to a two meter cubed space. They drank and there was some laughter. They were both shy in their own way and also both courageous in allowing a stranger intimate time in their own lives.

As a seasoned barkeep I did my part: I left them alone.